OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cont.....

Have I got cancer or haven't I got cancer, it's not life threatening but I'm lucky I've found this when I did, the only treatment is surgery, what kind of surgery???????

These words have been swimming around my head for the last week....

10.50 on Sunday 25th November 2012 & I'm once again sat in the hospital waiting room, dressed in one of those very sexy gowns, they tie at the back but are very open. I actually don't mind them, as my back is my best feature, (some girls like tight cleavage revealing tops, me I'm a high neck, backless dress, kinda gal). This time however I have to wear 2 gowns so that one is open at the front - easy access I suppose!

I'm waiting to go in for my MRI scan, this to see how much of the DCIS is actually in my boob & if there is any in the other one as well. Actual definition of DCIS is :- the most common type of non invasive breast cancer - http://dcis.info/

If anyone has had an MRI scan before they're not the most pleasant of experiences especially if you get a bit claustro.

The nurse calls my name & in I go, firstly I have a needle attached to a drip that's placed in my arm, this has dye that gets flooded into my body so that the scanner knows what to pick up etc. I'm also given a list of albums to choose from to listen to whilst having the scan, I presume to take your mind off the fact your lying face down in a tube with your breasts placed in 2 holes.. Bit like a massage table, the face bit not the boob holes, but then I suppose it depends what type of massage parlours you've been to, but that's a whole other story...

So I decide on some ambient relaxing mood music thinking naively it may help me drift off into oblivion for the half hour, as I'd been up most of the night with the baby & could do with a little shut eye (when you're a mum any chance to have a lie down is grabbed with both hands).

I'm taken into the room, I lie face down in the tube, ear phones on my ears & a panic button placed in my hand. The music starts I think this isn't bad until the machine is turned on. Well all I can say is what a bloody waste of money it is having the cd collection & music system.. You cannot hear a note!!!! Just the loudest, ear bashing, repetitive noise I've ever heard. Sleep??? I spend the next 10 mins laughing to myself thinking I can't believe they give you music, whatever for??? In the end I just closed my eyes & tried to concentrate on blocking out the deafening noise that leaves my ears ringing & gives me a near migraine, and then it's over... 25 mins (I kept very still so it was quicker).

Back in my clothes, back in the car, & my wonderful mum takes me home...

Next appointment Wednesday 5.45pm for the results......