Tuesday, 19 February 2013

Life goes on....

6 weeks & counting! Still living at my mums.. Thought I'd be strong enough by now & my house would be ready to move into but alas no. 1 more week to go then I'm on my own. No more grandma to help at breakfast (so I can have an extra hour in bed), no more grandma to help at bathtime (so I can go have a lie down before I fall down), no more grandma to help at 3/5/6 am wake up calls whilst I sleep soundly in the other room.. Tell me again why I want to leave... ??????

It all has to come to an end, we've been thoroughly spoilt with this help on tap & my poor mum is ready for a breakdown! So back to reality & standing on my own 2 feet.

Meanwhile i've been keeping busy as life still goes on - nursery runs, play dates & parties (a 2 year old with a very full social life), and me well I've been focussing on creating something positive out of this negative situation.. Tonight i'm off to a committee meeting for Future Dreams charity with regard to a big fundraiser they're planning, last week I had an interview with the JC newspaper 'telling my story' so hoping that will go to print, & also waiting on a call back regarding a media volunteering programme for Breakthrough Breast Cancer.

However there still is no getting away from the fact only 6 weeks ago I had major surgery, I had a double mastectomy, & part of my body is just not my own. Pushing it to the back of your mind, or trying to be positive is fine, but even that's difficult to do 24/7. So I've made an earlier hospital appointment for Monday just to check everything is healing ok, as I think not, maybe I'm just being paranoid or over cautious, but as previous experience has shown me, better to be safe than sorry!

I just want to mention my new friend to be Bex ;) I know she's reading this, & writing her own blog - bexbeer.com - "Everyday a positive thought" - Cancer really does affect us all in many different ways... sending strength & love your way, you incredibly brave girl!!

I know I keep saying it but please check yourselves girls & boys!!

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Thursday, 7 February 2013

Alternative therapies rock!

It's been 5 weeks today since my op & I'm happy to say i'm most definitely over the worst. This week for the first time I haven't felt that sore or achy, even though my boobs by 6pm feel like pumped up balloons ready to explode off my chest (swelling & fluid), & I get these random piercing shooting pains between the skin & implant (the nerves knitting together), but compared to how I felt 2 weeks ago it's bloody brilliant!

So today as there is no complaints, I'm going to tell you about the fantastic alternative treatment I've been having. The Lymphatic drainage massage at Chai Cancer Care in Hendon which I have mentioned before, is definitely helping to drain the fluid naturally back into my body, & my therapists soft gentle touch is just delightful. Who knew that your Lymphatic vessels are positioned just under your skin & feather like pressure is all you need to open them. Every woman should go for Lymphatic draining (or look it up on internet how to do it yourself), as lymph nodes are important in the proper functioning of the immune system, & rids your breasts of any excess fluid that can cause aches, pains, & who knows what else...

On Wednesday I had some spiritual healing by my very kind, beautiful friend Nicola Novack - nicola@novack.co.uk - an experience which I can only describe as INTENSE, AMAZING & POWERFUL! After my treatment she gave me an Amethyst crystal (for protection) to wear at all times in my bra (whatever works). I highly recommend anyone who is poorly or just not feeling right no matter how big or small the problem, make an appointment & hopefully get some comfort.

The best news of all happened just this morning, for the first time since I said goodbye to him the night before going into hospital, I had proper cuddles with my little boy, a real body to body clench & it was wonderful. Those little things like carrying & hugging him that I took for granted, I have missed so much. Although I doubt he's noticed as everyone else has been so full on with him, but as his mummy it has been very hard on me.

As I'm feeling so much better I think I'll start driving again, maybe tomorrow.. my friends have had a baby & I'm desperate to visit them. Huge congrats mama & dada Swerin!xxx

Last & by no means least a massive thank you to my mum - best nurse ever! for looking after me & taking such good care of us, it's been emotional - but i'm soooooo looking forward to going back to my own (newly refurbished) home next week, how exciting!

Once I'm back home, back to reality & back to thankfully getting on with the rest of my cancer free life (until my next check up in 5 weeks), I can hopefully start to see this blip as a distant memory. In the meantime I will continue to enhance my being, whilst using the enjoyable, alternative, homeopathic & spiritual therapies, as they totally rock!!!